my heart is so weak
when i saw her condition turning from bad to worst.
hopingthat she would recover soon.
and still hoping..
her lungs are so weak


love you grandma.

weekend was super packed
Friday
was supposed to work 5-closing.
But i had a pit to attend too and visited my grandma.
Don't asked me about the pit. just pathetic okay.
plan was very screwed up when it comes to boys organizing.
Thanks to my life savior ojang my cousin.
Den,
Hanged out with bf till 3am.

Saturday.
Woke up surprisingly super late today.
Was in a rush to game.
Lucky me, bf was awake by then.
he send me to the stadium.
Stomachache just gets on my nerves sometimes.
We won the game.=)

Then rushed to het's place to dressed up for nabil's farewell party.
Thanks het for the last minute dress up help.
Anyway het got her gilera out already.
congrats bestie=)

had food at ljs..

Reached wine garage at 11.30pm
the crew was awesome.
Cause the bitches are not there.
woohoo!

then headed to 1 nite stand.
life band was average.
crowd was quite slow.
no vodka for me and bf just
orange juice all the way...

dance till 3am.
het's place.
sleep over.


Sunday

cooked lunch with het for her family.
then medicure while het fall asleep.


b fetched me
me b and azar headed down to boon keng for soccer.
With rouges crew and kitchen crew.
bitches not there again.
woo hoo!
so fun fun.!
i scored the first goal!

went to hospital visited grandma..
i love you


late dinner at joe corner with bf.
nice ayam penyet.

sometime make me sick.

nites zzZZZZZZzzzzZZZZ



THAT'S NABIL

arrrrrrrr..
i miss the guys in my class like badly.
especially the closes ones.
Grandma is recovering =)
my days has been a big headache.
I'm having lack of sleep cause amirul kept waking me up early in the morning just to teach him his homework.
And irfan kissing me all the time and hiding beside my blanket when he is playing hide seek with amirul. I would be awaken by all that.
Thank god i'm not working today.
But there will be training but mum decided that we should go to hospital to visit granny.
But on the other hand, i don't want to miss training.


There's old people trying to be new at work.
they are promoted.
Ya, i can understand that there's a bigger responsibility.
But still you don't have to every time bitch over it right.
Very childish.
And because of that everyone don't favor you.
It's so hard to co-operate now.
As usual i will stick to neutral.





9 April???

Sometimes in life when you got them
nothing else matters..

Good Friday..

Went out visited my grandma with b. We were very lucky that the security allows us to get in. Cause the visiting time has actually ended. We came in at around 9.10. Grandma was asleep when we went to her bed. Seems that the tube in her throat has been removed and she seems to be recovering. Get well soon grandma.=) love you.


Town was dead after 9.30.
ice cream cigarettes Macdonald's chilled talked laugh argued smile kisses hugged smacked scissor paper stone.

day ended.


A day at east coast.

bumped into El. After like supe2 long, then i met her. With our bf la, if not i bet we would be chatting. haha.

It's quite a boring day actually.
Het and sabri was cycling
Me and b was too lazy indeed.=)
So we sat down at the water breaker had our foods.
When suddenly, heavy rain poured..
so nothing much we could do...

bored. thanks to psp THE SIMS!!!
And last minute plan of playing pool!





STEP UP 2.
wasn't as good as step up.
story line sucks.

And ya, i gain weight now.
I need to cut down on my temptations on foods

• No more deep fried food.
• No more heavy supper.
• No more taking cabs from the mrt. i shall walk
• Eat more fruits and vegetables.
• Have more rest.
• Drink more mineral water.
• No gassy drinks.
• No more KFC.
• No McSpicy
• No L fries
• No Coke
• Jogging.
• No Ice cream.
• Eat twice a day.

i envy tyra.

Clubbing was a blast that for sure.
Was het's birthday and she badly wanted to get the old crew down the club.
We had so much fun dance and laughing our ass off.
The most boring part was majority didnt want to head to the main arena.
And that just suck big time.
All day was smoove that kinda sucky.
Joe and hafiz white dance like vibrating sak!
Hafeeez dance like so aggressive.
So when he is dancing just scram off or you might get elbowed by him. I got hit like twice . hahha
Hafiz is the hip hop shit chiller.
Emy was super Sexy.
Man was duper cool.
Wan was Mr Cool.
Fiq was erm no comment.
Aby dance like a porn star.
Het was like hip hop ghetto.
And i was a non stop shuffler.
hahahaha...



I swear got a lot of mats there. And drunk bitches around us. like what!
Get a life womanss..

They planning again this next week.
I might not be going..=(

been trying to get thru ikin.
so hard!
where have u been?

working in the morning shift has been a bitch.
like for really! Many of them are a bitch.
And seriously, i didn't do anything wrong.
As usual i worked as per normal.
It's standard that everyone got breaks just the timing is different
I was working from 12-5. 5hours
Because i was having trg later.
I was so shocked that this bitch at work told me that i can't have break
because i only work for 5 hours.
wth!!!

And who the fuck are you to say that???
I don't work for you okay!

She blow her own face back when she asked the manager "whether there's break for those who work for 5 hours?"
And jeff said " YES" 20 MINS!


hahahahaha... served you right bitch!
come on la i been working for fucking long.
And you trying to get in my way. what the hell?
Heartless and selfish bitch..
I'm so not gonna work in the morning again.
supposed to be working today in the morning.

Informed my manager that I have swapped shift to night due to something urgent.
And i can't tolerate people who just bothers me over nothing.
like come on, Don't you have a fucking life?
I seriously don't bother getting into people's underwear.
And getting affected over it. No way not my kinda of shit!
Everyone deserved their right no matter what.

If i made mistake i would say sorry.
I don't have bad intentions or whatever.
Sometimes accidents happened.
If you fucking childish not to get over it
and tell the whole world.
Then it's not my business.
I wouldn't be over your stinky feets.

Sometimes i just don't understand why people are just so busybody.
Cant they just get back in their way.
Stop interfering in people's life.
You don't do any good..
Just cram....

Rain Rain go away..
come again another..

Went out with irfan instead.
another day, ikin =)

I'm tremendously confused about which to go.
Het's party would be a blast for sure.
Iffa's party would be a even blast.

So I'm confused.


Ouh well, I hate hsbc bank for sure. bloody few branch and it closed fucking early.
i was so eager to get my pay, but 3.40 was very late indeed..=(


So would be going to get them tomorrow.
meeting ikin later would be doing our little shopping time at bugis.


I'm gonna slacked the whole week till Thursday.
work oh work..

Promise me
Promise me
Promise me
Promise me!!!


Break it..
You always do.
Break it so hard now.
I'm so numb by you.

I overheard my sister and dad conversation. They were talking about moving out to somewhere.
I think it's gonna be sengkang! WTF!!! I seriously hate sengkang areas. It's fucking far from everything. Especially my friends and everything!!. I'm fine staying here. As it's much more convenient and comfortable. Honestly i prefer living in the East side or West. Cause i got tonnes of friends there. After i went to secondary school then i started to feel the different. I got closes friends here. But it's just a few of them. We would hanged out at our favorite places. And ya, amaliah is moving few block closer to me. And i'm really looking forward for that. And i hope we are not moving away. Please!

2 days i didn't went to school. We finished our phase test and assignment so even if we go to school we would be doing anything. We would be playing games and chit chatting. So i rather sleep at home and wake up late=).
Will be back to school tomorrow as it's the last day of the term. =)
gonna miss the class..

And ya Party was a success and everyone was well behave..
hahah=)

Grandma was hospitalized again today. It's seems major. And i'm yet to visit her. Mum said that kids is not allowed in the ward. As they might disturbed the patiences. So i'm staying at home with irfan. Was entertaining him with games and food all night till her fall asleep. And lucky he did. Was supposed to meet hui shan but got to cancel the plans. 2 days straight. Sorry babe(if you are reading this.)

And i don't know why i have been waking up bloody late this few days. Yesterday i woke up at 11am when school starts at 8am. Then today i woke up at 8.30. Lucky i finished my practical work and everything. Washed my hands clean. Holiday is approaching and i hope everything would get back as per normal. So i could just hang out with friends and work and RELAX my mind. And ++++training. Got around 3 to 4 games for the league then it's over.


Gosh! Never know what happened at school today. Firstly my contact lenses was fucking blurry.
Back to the major part, during P.E lessons we are not supposed to play soccer in the hall. Well.. ermm hmm we played. When we were already warned by the teacher in charge several times .=/ hehee..
But the fucked up part was, we didnt planned to run away from cleaning the court.We just thought of getting out of the court. But everyone suddenly ran away from the hall and hide.=P I swear i don't understand why.. But since some monster was left behind. Mr Boncet panni caught us!!!!!!!!.. PE was never fun to play hide and side with your PE teacher.. hahaha. He was so pissed off with us that he is going to email our class advisor on our bad conduct. Hahaha. So we are dead tomorrow!!!!!

And ya, our class advisor is planning to get us a class party. And the total cost is $198 for food at KFC and Pizza hut!.. I hope nothing is gonna cancel!!

Not my fault for being sporty.
I still loves heels and make ups.

I want to be a better person.
Someone who could be depend on.
Just simple closer, closer to god.
I will always remember him.
No matter how happy or sad life could be.

It's been days and hours since the search for the JI leader Mas selamat KastAri. He escaped has triggered the whole country. And everyone is feeling very insecure and unsafe. He may be walking beside you unknowingly. The whole military is on force to search for this dangerous man. From the special operating command to police to the army. And everyone should do their part to search for him. And his escaped is a major question to the public now. How can the ones in-charge be so irresponsible? He is the most dangerous person to let loose, How could it just happened? He managed to escaped from the detention centre, when there's security and guards at the entrance.
Thousands of question in everyone's mind now. But at this point of time, we should just put aside those question and search for him first. I really hope he will be found soon. I read about him and how he actually got into JI links. It's really scary. Just imaged what if he managed to get through his links. What if he back for revenge? Gosh! I'm really not gonna continue.
I hope everyone would be more vigilant and do our part in helping keeping our nation safe.