i still sitting here, watching the picture of us playing through my mind. i just dont seems to forget the things that is done. everythings so hurtful. i dont seems to forget the time we were in our childhood days together. wearing that school uniform together, hanging out at bedok library sneaking through our way out for something fun. trying our hard to study but we always ended up chit chatting. we were always oppsite of each other. nothing much about us is common. we learnt lot thru our mistakes. rmb teaching u playing football and skateboarding at toy r us. and rmb u banged into the board and it fell.we quickly sneak out way out. rmb hanis, haha. how childish it was to fight over you. but everything was a happy ending. we ended up being frens together.rmb macdonalds hang out.. haha. we always running out of cash and we always bought cheese burger and 2 ice water for urself. pathetic but yet we were happy. secondary school we were apart, but still friendship could never torn, we hang out at tampines rmb. where ray is always a ass hole, making you cry over nothing. he is an ass who always make you cry. keep calling asking you to get home. apart from ray, we were always talking about our dreams and wants when we grow wiser. saving our cash for neo prints. haha sharing my maths notes wif you, which you are weaker in. i could clearly see how strong our friendship was. i learnt being in puntual from you. haha. but yet i still waited for you even it was hours. rmb you came down for my national training, watching me train. my team mates thought i was a les too. haha. rmb singapore idol, haha. a blast rmb. waking up early in the morning for me. i never forget us. i never did. im not being emotionally over things. im not paranoid. i just want you to know what i been wanting to say yet its never clear to your ears. but i tired of people asking about you and all i could say was.. im not really sure. it sad how you could just put aside everything yet im here trying hard to make things right.tears are just my wonder now. never know who is it for. people must be wondering what happened to us. and i just dont care who they think is right or wrong. But all i care is you are my bestfren and you will always be and no one can replace you

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